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agent washington ([personal profile] emps) wrote in [community profile] spankbanks2017-04-30 08:50 pm
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[personal profile] gettinglaid 2017-05-02 04:48 am (UTC)(link)
[It's quiet; not the same kind of quiet he came out with, but a softer kind. It's easier. He watches Chorus above them, then takes in a slow breath.]

...Back in Freelancer, you were in a lot of fights. Right?
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[personal profile] gettinglaid 2017-05-02 04:54 am (UTC)(link)
[Tucker's making the effort to keep his eyes carefully trained forward, not at Wash, keep his ears working.]

... How'd you handle the aftermath?
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[personal profile] gettinglaid 2017-05-02 05:13 am (UTC)(link)
[Tucker listens. It's the most honest conversation they've had in a while, and he thought maybe Wash would have some better answers than what he had.

Turns out they had the same answers. Not so different, really.]


Yeah, running's still not really my thing.

[So the other option is to Talk about it.]
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[personal profile] gettinglaid 2017-05-02 05:27 am (UTC)(link)
[He's pretty sure he gets what Wash is putting down. And any other time, he'd joke about it. But now just... doesn't feel like the time. And it wasn't until Chorus that Tucker started noticing those social cues. He really has changed.

He takes in a deep breath, cross his arms over the railing and lowers his head so it's level with his shoulders.]


I don't... Really do the talking thing much either.
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[personal profile] gettinglaid 2017-05-02 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
[There it goes, the deafening silence at the end of Wash's "much--". He thinks he's gotten a little better at not making it obvious when it happens, but even he can't do anything about the way his shoulders tense, just a hair, so he can look at Wash's mouth out the corner of his eye. Just to make sure he isn't still talking.

How much what?

Fuck. Maybe if he just. Stays quiet. Or maybe this is the way to do it. When he can't hear any response.]


...Be easier if I didn't still dream it. Just... All the noise and-- Then the nothing. [he's trying at least.]
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[personal profile] gettinglaid 2017-05-02 06:04 am (UTC)(link)
[Tucker watches carefully, trying not to look like he is. But who the fuck is 'her'?]

Unless she's telling you to have a threeway with me, I don't see why you're telling the guy you just started dating that you're dreaming about a girl.

[There's some stuff that happened even Tucker never did get to know about.]
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[personal profile] gettinglaid 2017-05-02 04:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[Normally he would be, this would be a missing puzzle piece to all the shit he got caught up in.

But he only catches three words: Church, Epsilon, and Director. But not much else. Fuck, he was going he wouldn't have to show his cards. Tucker sighs and shakes his head.]

Didn't catch it. Either way, I just dream about it and... I dunno, it keeps me up.
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[personal profile] gettinglaid 2017-05-02 04:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[If he could figure out what the hell is wrong with him, they could fix this. as it is, he sighs in frustration himself, watches Wash go back inside and come back with... OH hell no. This is what he's reduced to.

Tucker bashes a face at the tablet but... whatever wash is trying to say must be important.]

...well. we'll try it.
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[personal profile] gettinglaid 2017-05-03 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
[He takes the tablet and. Boy that is a lot of information, but it's the last few missing pieces of a fucked up puzzle he'd mostly put together on his own. Some stuff fit, other stuff made more sense now.

The quiet is probably agonizing for Wash who just poured out more information about himself than Tucker had managed to pick up over the last few years, but Tucker needs to sort it out in his head. What that means for him, for Church (both Churches, the one he knew before and laughed with and probably-definitely-loved and the one that just died in his head), for Wash, for everyone they knew.

He finally takes a slow breath, keeps his eyes on the tablet.]


No idea what you're apologizing for, dude.
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[personal profile] gettinglaid 2017-05-03 02:57 am (UTC)(link)
[When Wash moves in, Tucker instinctively wants to move back. Did Wash say anything? Did he make a noise, what's happening- and then their foreheads are together and. This is intimate. It's intimate in the way Wash's breath ghosts over his face, his fingertips against the back of Tucker's neck and implant site.

This. That's what he understands. They both had the same thing happen with the same AI. Not that Tucker's was as dramatic as Wash's experience, but. Still bad.

He closes his eyes, focuses on feeling Wash's breath and the sound it makes when they reach his ears.]


... Doesn't bring him back. [He sounds a little miserable. Like he's thinking to every time Church left.]
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[personal profile] gettinglaid 2017-05-03 03:15 am (UTC)(link)
[Tucker lets Wash lead him, guide his hand to Wash's fucking broken implant. He knows this is important; Wash's AI slot has always been a point of... nondiscussion. No one brings it up, no one talks about it.

His face scrunches, brows knot together as he tries to keep the composure. It shouldn't fucking matter that he's gone again, because he's always gone.]


Just--fucking once wish he'd let me say bye to his face.
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[personal profile] gettinglaid 2017-05-03 04:51 am (UTC)(link)
[So Wash definitely can tell he can hear again. His hand clenches against the back of Wash's neck, keeps his eyes closed. Because there's so much he didn't get to tell him over the years.]

To stop being a fucking baby and tell me how he felt. [He inhales sharply, a hiss through his teeth because - that's really the important thing. Tucker would never openly admit he loved the guy (because he was a program, he always was, Tucker knew and didn't risk saying it out loud), but Church was still... Church.] That I knew, the whole time what he was. It didn't-- [And his voice goes tired. Loses the sharp edge and softens into exhaustion.] It didn't matter to me.

...I just wanted him to trust me.
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[personal profile] gettinglaid 2017-05-03 05:53 am (UTC)(link)
[Wash doesn't say anything and for once, Tucker's glad he doesn't have to hear whatever Important Wisdom he might have to offer. He moves to rest his forehead against Wash's shoulder - easier, more comfortable. His breath feels like it's half-stopped gasps when he thinks harder about what he would've wanted to tell Church.]

I just-- He-he was an idiot, Wash. Never knew the right thing to say, he was an asshole, and he hated us, I just... [he trails off, tries to get his breath and slumps against him. He's got to get a lid on this or he'll never shut up. He'll never live it down if the reds find out he was crying over Church.] Jackass. [But there's no malice or bite to it. Just hurt and weariness, a little wet around the edges.]

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